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row。 When a painter renders the fury and speed of a horse�察�he doesn¨t paint 
his own fury and speed�察�by trying to make the perfect horse�察�he reveals his love 
for the richness of this world and its creator�察�displaying the colors of a passion 
for life!only that and nothing more。 ̄ 
 
 
   
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I AM CALLED BLACK 
 
Various manuscript pages lay before me and the great Master Osman!some 
with  calligraphed  texts  and  ready  to  be  bound�察 �some  not  yet  colored  or 
otherwise  unfinished  for  whatever  reason!as  we  spent  an  entire  afternoon 
evaluating  the  master  miniaturists  and  the  pages  of  my  Enishte¨s  book�察�
keeping  charts  of  our  assessments。  We  thought  we¨d  seen  the  last  of  the 
mander¨s respectful but crude men�察�who¨d brought us the pages collected 
from the miniaturists and calligraphers whose homes they raided and searched 
��some pieces had nothing whatsoever to do with either of our two books and 
some  pages  confirmed  that  the  calligraphers�察 �as  well�察 �were  secretly  accepting 
work from outside the palace for the sake of a few extra coins���察�when the most 
brash  of  them  stepped  over  to  the  exalted  master  and  removed  a  piece  of 
paper from his sash。 
I paid no mind at first�察�thinking it was one of those petitions from a father 
seeking an apprenticeship for his son by approaching as many division heads 
and group captains as possible。 I could tell that the morning sun had vanished 
by the pale light that filtered inside。 To rest my eyes�察�I was doing an exercise 
the old masters of Shiraz remended miniaturists do to stave off premature 
blindness�察 �that  is�察 �I  was  trying  to  look  emptily  into  the  distance  without 
focusing。  That¨s  when  I  recognized  with  a  thrill  the  sweet  color  and  heart´
stopping  folds  of  the  paper  which  my  master  held  and  stared  at  with  an 
expression of disbelief。 This matched exactly the letters that Shekure had sent 
me via Esther。 I was about to say�察 �What a coincidence ̄ like an idiot�察�when I 
noticed  that�察 �like  Shekure¨s  first  letter�察 �it  was  acpanied  by  a  painting  on 
coarse paper� �
Master Osman kept the painting to himself。 He handed me the letter that I 
just then embarrassingly realized was from Shekure。 
 
My  Dear  Husband  Black。  I  sent  Esther  to  sound  out  late  Elegant  Effendi¨s 
widow�察 �Kalbiye。  While  there�察 �Kalbiye  showed  Esther  this  illustrated  page�察 �which 
I¨m sending to you。 Later�察�I went to Kalbiye¨s house�察�doing everything within my 
power to persuade her that it was in her best interest to give me the picture。 This 
page  was  on  poor  Elegant  Effendi¨s  body  when  he  was  removed  from  the  well。 
Kalbiye swears that nobody had missioned her husband�察�may he rest in divine 
light�察�to draw horses。 So then�察�who made them�拭�The mander¨s men searched 
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the house。 I¨m sending this note because this matter must have significance to the 
investigation。 The children kiss your hands respectfully。 Your wife�察�Shekure。 
 
I carefully read the last three words of this beautiful note thrice as if staring 
at  three  wondrous  red  roses  in  a  garden。  I  leaned  over  the  page  that  Master 
Osman was scrutinizing�察�magnifying lens in hand。 I straightaway noticed that 
the shapes whose ink had bled were horses sketched in a single motion as the 
old masters would do to accustom the hand。 
Master  Osman�察 �who  read  Shekure¨s  note  without  ment�察 �voiced  a 
question�此 �Who drew this�拭院�He then answered himself�察 �Of course�察�the same 
miniaturist who drew the late Enishte¨s horse。 ̄ 
Could he be so certain�拭�Moreover�察�we weren¨t at all sure who¨d drawn the 
horse  for  the  book。  We  removed  the  horse  from  among  the  nine  pages  and 
began to examine it。 
It was a handsome�察�simple�察�chestnut horse that you couldn¨t take your eyes 
off of。 Was I being truthful when I said this�拭�I had plenty of time to look at 
this  horse  with  my  Enishte�察 �and  later�察 �when  I  was  left  alone  with  these 
illustrations�察�but I hadn¨t given it much thought then。 It was a beautiful�察�but 
ordinary  horse�此 �It  was  so  ordinary  that  we  weren¨t  even  able  to  determine 
who¨d drawn it。 It wasn¨t a true chestnut�察�but more bay´colored�察�there was a 
faint  hint  of  red  in  its  coat  as  well。  It  was  a  horse  that  I¨d  seen  so  often  in 
other  books  and  other  illustrations  that  I  knew  it¨d  been  drawn  by  rote 
without the miniaturist¨s stopping to give it any consideration at all。 
We  stared  at  the  horse  this  way  until  we  discovered  it  concealed  a  secret。 
Now�察 �however�察 �I  could  see  a  beauty  in  the  horse  that  shimmered  like  heat 
rising before my eyes and within it a force that roused a zest for life�察�learning 
and  embracing  the  world。  I  asked  myself�察  �Who¨s  the  miniaturist  with  the 
magic touch that depicted this horse the way Allah would see it�拭院�as if having 
forgotten  suddenly  that  he  was  also  nothing  but  a  base  murderer。  The  horse 
stood before me as if it were a real horse�察�but somewhere in my mind I also 
knew  it  was  an  illustration�察 �being  caught  between  these  two  thoughts  was 
enchanting and aroused in me a sense of wholeness and perfection。 
For  a  time�察 �we  pared  the  blurred  horses  drawn  for  practice  with  the 
horse made for my Enishte¨s book�察�determining finally that they¨d been made 
by  the  same  hand。  The  proud  stances  of  those  strong  and  elegant  studs 
bespoke  stillness  rather  than  motion。  I  was  in  awe  of  the  horse  of  Enishte¨s 
book。 
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^This is such a spectacular horse�察院�I said�察 �it gives one the urge to pull out a 
piece of paper and copy it�察�and then to draw every last thing。 ̄ 
^The greatest pliment you can pay a painter is to say that his work has 
stimulated your own enthusiasm to illustrate�察院�said Master Osman。 ^But now 
let¨s  forget  about  his  talent  and  try  to  uncover  this  devil¨s  identity。  Had 
Enishte  Effendi�察 �may  he  rest  in  peace�察 �ever  mentioned  the  kind  of  story  this 
picture was meant to acpany�拭院�
^No。 According to him�察�this was one of the horses that lived in the lands 
that our powerful Sultan rules。 It is a handsome horse�此�a horse of the Ottoman 
line。 It is a symbol that would demonstrate to the Veian Doge Our Sultan¨s 
wealth  and  the  regions  under  his  control。  But  on  the  other  hand�察 �as  with 
everything the Veian masters depict�察�this horse was also to be more lifelike 
than a horse born of God¨s vision�察�more like a horse that lived in a particular 
stable with a particular groom in Istanbul so that the Veian Doge might say 
to himself�察 �Just as the Ottoman miniaturists have e to see the world like 
us�察�so have the Ottomans themselves e to resemble us�察亜�in turn�察�accepting 
Our  Sultan¨s  power  and  friendship。  For  if  you  begin  to  draw  a  horse 
differently�察�you begin to see the world differently。 Despite its peculiarities�察�this 
horse was rendered in the manner of the old masters。 ̄ 
The more we deliberated over the horse�察�the more beautiful and precious it 
became  in  my  eyes。  His  mouth  was  slightly  open�察 �his  tongue  visible  from 
between his teeth。 His eyes shone bright。 His legs were strong and elegant。 Did 
a  painting  bee  legendary  for  what  it  was  or  for  what  was  said  about  it�拭�
Master Osman was ever so slowly moving the magnifying lens over the animal。 
^What  is  it  that  this  horse  is  trying  to  convey�拭院 �I  said  with  naive 
enthusiasm。  ^Why  does  this  horse  exist�拭 �Why  this  horse�  �What  about  this 
horse�拭�Why does this horse excite me�拭院�
^The  pictures  as  well  as  the  books  missioned  by  sultans�察 �shahs  and 
pashas  proclaim  their  power�察院 �said  Master  Osman。  ^The  patrons  find  these 
works beautiful�察�with their extensive gold leaf and lavish expenditures of labor 
and  eyesight  because  they  are  proof  of  the  ruler¨s  wealth。  An  illustration¨s 
beauty is significant because it is proof that a miniaturist¨s talent is rare and 
expensive  just  like  the  g
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